The Bookshelf

9.04.23 "they say your knees are wounded because you've been taunted and stained. though what do they know of worship? what do they know of true passion? you kiss the thoughts that hang in the air, you look where gazes have lingered, pick and bathe in every detail you see; you taste the words spoken when you breathe in, taste what nuances of despair and joy lay in them; still you walk like a shadow through world’s light, only picked up by cold and rough hands with friendly faces and, after your warmth has warmed, thrown to the side to further wander around with limbs reached out, searching and pleading for a warm hand to hold."

9.06.23 "pain kisses your temple and pulls you awake, heat prickling on nerves ends like birds picking at tree’s branches while songs of spring are sung in front of your looking-glass. not once in your life has your cage been a home though your rips ripped apart on its own won’t make a path; only on fire and crawling with claws extended makes you at ease while time is lost from your tongue and you drown in sour spit, your limbs stretched to the limit, the muscles sore, your head is split. not today, you think as thoughts slip away and dreams wish to guide you back to pain undone. pain waits though, with a smile and a cup in their hands, and you smile as they sit on the bed's edge. you take their poison and give yourself up for them and loss."

"like god i’ve sinned and like god i’ve forgiven myself, though who am i to forgive the unforgivable? it’s blasphemy, from the devil himself, and monsters so cruel it makes demons run into god’s arms will surround me though i myself am holy. god has given me this task, to caress the pains of sinners unasked, though sacredness is luck and sin forever the misfortune of the misfortuned. my only conclusion for this is this: god does only pick who’s seen bliss. me and whoever stays on my side, we are the ones that have tried and failed to make sin a myth. so throw your ink that stains at me and let me disappear before your eyes! you’re playing monk pretend; soon you’ll taste my love on your tongue."

"hurt people fall behind curtains before they part to reveal the secrets and plays that’s been kept close to heart. to know them is to be cursed for eternity, though the unknown splits you in half with flesh between teeth and guilt overbearing. your hand hurts from contemplating, your ink drained into nothingness, staring at your face blankly; some day the answers will show in the stains dry-blown and you can rest on the power you gain through knowledge revealed but don’t let it be known - the deepest of depths you had to survive: how much ink stains your soul now that you thrive?"

10.4.23 bleggghhh HI HI HI!!!! We have just a few weeks till Halloween, and I can't wait! I hope everyone has a good day, I'll be updating the site quite a bit since I'm messing around wih all of the graphics.

10.5.23 BRO PLEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEE ELLIOT KNIGHT IS SO PRETTY IM BAWLING. i love almost all of the cod actors they're amazing holy balls. I've been watching a lot of Sad Boyz recently, I love how Jarvis and Jordan's humour combines, especially whenever they have other people on the show, it's absolutely stellar. DUDE THERE ARE SO MANY CONTENT CREATORS I LOVE THAT FOCUS MOSTLY ON HISTORY AND SEWING!!!!! Kaz Rowe, Rachel Maksy, Bernadette Banner, and Morgan Donner!!! Please watch their content it's so cool.

Watched Anastasia for the first time last night, and it was quite good! Planning on watching a lot more shows and movies soon... stay tuned....

10.14.23 Gonna try to add some more graphics, likes pins and stickers and gifs, but I'm gonna try to put them somewhere else OTHER THAN another scroll bar like my quiz results one. Might try and figure out how to make a pop-up and put them into scroll boxes there.... Idk, I'll figure it out, though!

This questionnaire was taken from hekate.neocities.org, but is originally from yupthatsme.neocities.org, check out their sites! + this thing I got from tumblr

Filled out: 10/06-07/23

What were you doing at 11 last night:: Awake, probably watching some commentary Youtuber

Do you think you and your best friend will be friends in 10 years:: ….Maybe.

What could you eat any day of the week and never get tired of:: This one toasted and buttered ham sandwich I always make

Funniest thing that happened in the last 24 hours:: Emoji cumshot
Do you have any plans for the weekend:: Nope, probably just going to hang around

Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex:: Yup! From my grandmother

Would you kiss anyone you have texts from in your phone:: It’s a 50/50, but sure

Do you find drinking unattractive:: Yes, I personally really hate alcohol

When was the last time something bothered you:: Very recently

Do you know how to work a computer well:: Mostly…
To who did you last give the finger to:: The other week, this guy was annoying me

Six months ago, can you remember who you liked, who was it:: One of my friends, sadly

Anything embarrassing happen today:: No, thankfully

Has anyone ever done mean things to you while you were sleeping:: Yes, recently, my friend slapped my ass cause she thought I was still awake

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to:: Yes! Well, mostly? Yes, my best friend.

Would you rather be at the beach or lake:: LAKE!! I fucking hate the sand!!!!

Last thing you spent money on:: A vanilla bean scented lip balm... my lips are chapped as shit

What are you doing after this:: Probably gonna work on my Neocities more or watch Youtube

Your song of the week:: “Clay Pigeons” by Michael Cera ig

Have you ever cried from being so mad:: 100%

Are you happy with the choices you've made:: Mostly.

I bet you miss someone, huh:: Certainly

Would you rather be forced to eat 100 bananas or 100 apples:: Apples… I would feel nauseated either way

Have you dated the person you texted last:: No

Is good grammar attractive:: NO! If you have good grammar, good for you!

Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago:: Yes and No

Who was the last person to call you baby:: I have no clue

What is your favorite color:: RED!!

What color are your eyes:: Shit idfk, they look gray

How tall are you:: 5'4 or something

If you could have one wish right now what would it be:: A boyfriend probably 💀

Do you want to get married and have children one day:: Married, maybe. A strict no on kids

Who is the 9th contact in your phone:: eli

Ever liked someone who treated you like crap:: Hell no

If you could spend more time with someone you used to be very close with, would you:: Probably not

What are you listening to now:: “Pagan Holiday, Parts 1, 2 & 3: A Celebration / Dormant / Revenge” by Harley Poe

What woke you up today:: My allergies

Would you take someone back if they cheated on you:: FUCK no

Where was your default picture taken:: huh

How many windows are open on your computer:: 12 or so

Anything you really want:: A boyfriend or a TWRP cd

How many pillows do you sleep with:: …..5

Can you have more than one best friend:: YES!! I have multiple

What was last thing you drank:: Coke

How many pets do you have:: 1 dog, she’s 2!

What do you like better: apple cider or hot chocolate:: Hot chocolate, kiss my ass

Who last texted you:: One of my friends

What do you want right now:: A kiss
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- last song: Prime Mover - Ghost
favorite color: red
currently watching: NCIS
last movie: A League of Their Own
sweet/spicy/savory: ....Savory
current obsession: CALL OF DUTY!!!!!
relationship status: single.
last thing you googled: Elliot Knight